Ah yes, my stomach feels like it's dropping again. I had a realization just before lunch. I'm mentally co-dependent. I stress out while I'm not with other people about their moods and the way they feel. Can I do anything about the holiday rush while I'm here? No. Can I do anything about Sarah's mood while I'm here? No. Why am I spending so much time thinking about other people and not just relaxing and enjoying myself?
It's like the DMB lyric
If you close your eyes cause the house is on fire/think you couldn't move until the fire died.
Does everything have to be just right for me to relax? The constant feeling of being "at attention" is wearying at best and exhausting at worst.
My birthday was a mixed bag. Good birthday, getting the fridge and meat loaf and cake. Good Friday with work lunch and friends dinner. But I spent the whole weekend sick and still don't feel 100% all the time.
Anyway, time to relax.
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